Thursday, April 26, 2007

i am fuming with anger. at what? at MYSELF!!! fucking hell u would be laughing till your butt fume and ur teeth shaking because what i am angry at is really damn dumb but i bet anyone of u will be.

scene is.....

yeah, i am so happy. tml i have off. evening for camp till sunday. finally can wake up damn late tml la. but at night the night activity ends sibei late man. sian ji bua. nvm la tml wake up later can liao... a few mins later, dada called. tml toe operation in the morning, tml i off can acc him. wah piang eh, of all the timing why in the morning when i finally can slp???? sian man!

ok what is the irritating part of the story, it is me being angry bcoz i cant get to slp. isnt it totally dumb. i feel so kiddy and selfish. but really i was so happy and now i am now. i feel bad for not wanting to acc him to the hosp knowing that i wont get to see him during the weekends. but a part of me feels guilty yet the other part of me feels angry. angry because i have to get up early. guilty because i actually chose slp to him. fuck the shit in me man fucking hell.

i really dont understand why must i get so worked up because i cant sleep. and now that i know i have to wake up early tml yet i still want to come online to vent my anger thus wasting more time but i know if i go to bed now i wouldnt slp because i just feel so unhappy and not at ease. i feel like there's something bothering me so badly that i just felt like screaming the hell outta me now.

damn myself. damn damn damn. such an ass. ok, i feel much better now. go slp shoo shoo. i will go with him. tml morning. fcuk my attitude. i really have serious bad attitude.

Cries of attitudelamb at 7:51 AM