Thursday, February 15, 2007

well apparently alot of my darlings (people who cares for me), mistook my previous post. alright just to make it clear to all these darlings, IM OK and THANKS. i know u guys love me. hee.

ok, yesterday was valentine's day. so HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY SWEETIES! message to my dear ones:

DADA: hey honey! thanks for making ytd a special day. but everyday's valentine's day isnt it? hee. i love the boquet of flowers. (36 ROSES!! JEALOUS ANYONE? =D) ya its beautiful and im glad, finally u are buying me flowers but it will be better if u dared give it to me in the open. hee. =D anyway i was really happy yesterday and the movie was great. fantastic day. I LOVE U!! and mummy knows we went out. giggle snort fart. roar haha. and u are my only male valentine. now, then and always. i will not give u my heart bcoz i will die and no one will be there for u then, so i'll give u what i can give, say the kidney, liver, blood, etc. and nevertheless, my love. =)

CHERYL: my sexay crazy bitchy bitch! hey! u are my dearest best buddy in the whole wide world (*coughs* prolly da sao-gonna-be) giggles snort fart burp. i know u will pull ur hair and curse me for that but its ok. im used to it. and duh! i'll call u if im on the verge of breaking down. or maybe after i've broke down. hee. well u know me too well so what can i say huh. anyway, i'll be there for u too. 24/7. promise. =) and i wanna go out with u bloody idiot!! i miss bullying u and cracking the lamest kinda jokes with u. i like laughing like a maniac when i make crazy jokes out of u. i feel satisfied. u make me feel good man. wahaha! my lil guinea pig. too bad. borned to be played by me. and i love listening to ur endless nags, complains and watching ur "auntie" actions. its hilarious. look at urself next time babeh! haha! love ya tons!

BABES: dearest secondary sch and poly honeyzzz, sorry i couldnt celebrate this day with u guys becoz IM TAKEN AND WANTED AND LOVED AND RESERVED AND OCCUPIED AND NEEDED by someone else already. =) too bad! wahahaha! ok, i know u guys will be mumbling,"what ever!" under your breathe now but its ok. call me thick skin or a fat wobbly blob of fats or whatever u want, it doesnt matter bcoz as long as u guys know that i love all of u thats all it takes man! verbal attack doesnt work on me. =D yes im a vain and naive idiot. cheese!

so love was in the air yesterday. many many couples. good business for the theatres and food outlets. best of all the flourist earned big bucks. good timing for chinese new year. golden piggie year indeed. haha!

first aid course these few days. ytd, today and tml my test. i want to pass and i hope i can and i know i can. if i study later. but im really tired. help. anyway, i can do CPR now. moahaha! and help ppl who are choking so those around me, watch out. if i dont like u, i wont save u if u choke or pass out in front of me. its time to suck up to me man!!! *twist*

Cries of attitudelamb at 3:45 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

poink poink poink.

hmmm... i've been reading some of my friends' blog and i realised something. that i see part of myself in many other people. i can feel their sadness. i want to help but come to think of it. how?

friends that live with a mask on. friends that live to please others when what they are doing are really not what they wanna do. friends that keep everything to themselve. maybe because they dont see the point in sharing with others? because they thinks no one understands them?

yea the list goes on and on. and all of the above, shouldnt i be having the same problems too? so i am not alone. there are dark moments in everyone. i know. that explains all the weird paintings on my wall. sometimes i'll stare at them, not understanding why have i painted that. it was just something i wanted to do at that moment. but why such a sad picture?

but i think its about how a person looks at a matter. when i feel myself suffocating in the mask that im wearing, while my conscious mind is going into a coma, my sub consciousness is twirling. thinking and picturing. and a conclusion will appear. remove that damn mask for a while just to breath. thats when i show myself. sadly, people dont like it at all. so i'll have to put it back on. why?

seriously i dont know the answer. but i believe, one day i will figure it out. how to please myself and others. there has gotta be a way. positive ways. and it will lead me to true happiness. happiness that goes deep down into the core of my bones. something which i can still feel even when im sleeping. or maybe when im dead.

still thinking though......

Cries of attitudelamb at 9:20 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

wooo leh leh, wooo lah lah.. staying at home makes a person dumb, stupid, retarded, morose, idiotic and fat. yes i haven been working out, no exercises at ALL! its killing me just to eat, watch tv, read and sleep. if life continues like that, in less than a months time i'll be able to break the guinness world record for being the fattest woman on earth. hmmm, will i get money for that?

right anyway, ytd i went to the lighthouse clinic for a medical check up for my ppcdl. well its like finally! today faz and i will be registrating for our theory exam. hopefully its before the attachment but obviously it will fall during the attachment. im worried as i will have alot of OT and i'm afraid i might not be able to rush for the exam. well lets see about it.

ok, off i go to wash up before i head for school. *twist*

Cries of attitudelamb at 8:44 PM