Saturday, March 24, 2007
why did i choose this color?im feeling so down now.
i dont know why either.
i just feel sad.
i feel tired as well.
i want another ben and jerry's ice cream.
with you.
i dont think i have a reason to be sad.
though it is nothing,
its bothering me so much.
the fact that u called back
im sad.
very very sad.
but still u will say i have no reason to be sad.
because i've been bad before.
still i just wanted to hear u say
'sorry'
instead of denial
and accusation.
i was shocked.
i've always thought that im the only bad one.
being sinful and guilty for so long.
but i am wrong.
people are all the same.
so are you.
no different from me.
i've always seen u as a saint.
loving me.
u still do i know.
never setting eyes on anyone else.
but me.
though the love is still deep.
but at least now i know.
i dont have to feel guilty.
not anymore.
i have no intention to look back
i will not look back.
not anymore.
neither will i slow down
unless u hold me.
if not i will just keep walking.
away.
i am sad.
i am hurt.
i know how u'd felt.
now i am feeling the same.
but more painful.
because i am a girl.
i want to be strong
at least to look like it
though i am not.
2 years.
actually what've happened
its no big deal
why am i making a fuss out of it?
stupid me.
head pain.
heart pain.
how?
still
.
.
.
.
i like it this way.
