Monday, March 26, 2007

stomach pain. dying soon. its those kinda feeling that makes u tremble so badly and yet u just cant go release those crap in you. that feeling sucks. it makes my goosebumps rise like that national flag. it makes my hands go weak and soft like lard.

i hope today will be a stress-free day. for now i have nothing to do. nothing to do => no stress. no stress => no pulling of hair. no pulling of hair => no difficulty in breathing. no difficulty in breathing => no butterfly in my tummy.

and it goes on...

the sudden rush of queasiness is really indescribable. the nauseousness twirls in my head, leaving my hands and feet cold and clamy. when that happens, i will find it hard to speak. so what do all these add up to? the reality of the work life. burrrrr, scary.

argh, i have no mood in everything. my brain just wouldnt stop worrying about everything i can think of. can i be like an animal? just put me to sleep. forever. (let me die or just kill me with a jab) worst of all, i really dont know what the hell is stressing me. come to think of it, there is nothing to be worried about now. so why cant the squishy squashy sponge up there just take a break. ah.

i wanna go on a holiday. to another country. somewhere with nice water, food, sun and bed. just imagine, how nice would that be huh. haha! yeah maybe i will, just keep working, stressing for now, save enough money before i run away. yeah! perfect plan. =) ya right. sigh. if life's that easy. ha.

yesterday i went church for confession. my sins are always the same. why aint i changing? i know i will go to hell. and i know everyone around me will. majority of the christians think that as long as they believe in God, they will go heaven. haha. bullshit. i will see them all in hell and i will wiggle wag my tongue at them. shaking my butt telling them what a fool they are. HAHA! dumb bells. just because they are christians, they think they can get away with every sinful things they do like any other human beings. so naive. even the holiess person sin, needless to say an ordinary guy like u and i.

ok i am freezing. i need to go poo poo.

Cries of attitudelamb at 6:15 PM