Tuesday, January 09, 2007
i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u. i will never forgive u. i hate u. how do u feel having someone ready to stab u right in front of u? if not for my mum i would have died. forget it, i dont feel like blogging already. suddenly dont have the mood. im sorry dear for not understand u. u are trying hard to make me happy. haiz. but. nevermind. i feel like disappearing right now. i feel so sad. i hate everyone. i swear i hate everyone. dont ask me if i hate u because right now i hate everyone. i am being selfish. fuck care. i just hate everyone. no one will understand. they hate listening i know. they dont really care how u feel. just wants to please u and tries to make u happy. maybe they do care, but in the end they only care more about themselves. just dont want u to be sad. and soon u will be forgotten. the sorrows u are having will be forgotten and they expect u to be pleased already. and when u are still grouchy and sad they will be frustrated. but i appreciate. i will not blame them. its not their fault. i get irritated too when someone keeps feeling down. its affecting everyone around u. those innocent ones who has nothing to do with it. nothing to do with your sorrow. so i dont think its a good idea to share your pain. just your happiness. keep you sorrows to yourself. nobody likes it. even i myself hate it. i hate myself for affecting everyone around me. my moodless aura is making everyone upset. im trying to be happy but i cant. i feel really tired. my eyes feel salty. my arms' aching. my head hurts. but i dont really feel the pain. i console myself. i dont want sympathy. i dont need them. i dont want love either. i just want to be alone. i need to be alone. i hate everyone. i will not speak about it anymore. i dont want to speak about it anymore. i want to sleep. hopefully never wake up again.
Cries of attitudelamb at 5:34 AM
